Over it? I guess not.

Stupid Austin sent me messages again yesterday: pictures of his apartment and a new shelf he built. Why can't he just leave me alone! Ugh! And then this morning I was trying to delete him from my facebook and myspace and I read a couple of his status updates and comments. He was telling Kathy Del Pozo about his new girlfriend that he is "stoked about" and one of his status updates said "running with my girlfriend." It took forever to figure out how to just delete him. I should have done that a long time ago. I realized yesterday that I was leaving connections to him and it was time to just erase it all. I'm going to see what I can do about blocking his number too. It just really hurts. Why does he have to rub it in my face? For the past couple weeks, I was feeling really good about everything...like I was over it. Now here I am feeling awful and insignificant and heartbroken all over again. The worst thing is just that it was so easy for him to forget all about me and be crazy about someone else. I hate this feeling and I hate him for giving it to me. I wish I was better at expressing how I feel, because I'm sure what I've written doesn't even come close to describing it. I feel like dying.